Do you feel like nobody sees the real you? Do you feel like people are going on with their lives and you get left behind? The feeling of being an extra wheel even when sitting on a park bench is overwhelming in it’s rejection.
Life can be brutal, and at times when we need personal interaction and friendship, it is the hardest thing to come by. Yes, you have friends, but you don’t open up and be honest with them about the pain you feel inside. You feel as if the pain will make them dislike you, or even worse to mock your situation.
This happened to me in my young adulthood and it led to a marriage of convenience. It was a marriage where she didn’t love me, but I was convenient for her, and for a few years, I felt like I was worthy of being loved. But when that came to an end, the pain and rejection were ten times worse. By that time I was able to see that I needed help and I sought it out. That helped, but it wasn’t until I finally buckled under the pressure of life and gave my heart to Christ that the burden was lifted.
Yes, there is a solution, but it’s not easy. It’s not “cool” to humble yourself and let God into your life. It’s not what everyone else is doing, unless you are in a church crowd. But you would be surprised how many people are “playing” church, rather than giving their all to it.
So, I’m not going to recommend praying a prayer and leaving it at that. No, find someone. Someone you can trust in a mentor capacity. Talk with them about what you are going through and have them help you with your conversation with God. If you don’t know anybody, let me know. I’ll help you, or will point you to somebody else who will.
Today, I know I’m not alone. I know that I walk hand in hand with my Father in Heaven, and seek to please him and glorify him. I do this not because he demands it, but because that’s what a child does with his father.
I don’t want you to hurt any more. I don’t want you to be alone any more. Let me help you.