Dad, you’ve been gone for almost 26 years now. Taken much too early at the age of 49. I’m now 52 and think about you every day.
I wish I could have bought you that classic car, an impala like you once had.
I wish you could have been there for my two college graduations.
I wish you could have been there to give me advice about moving across country.
I wish you could have been there when I went through divorce and remarriage.
I wish you could have been there for the birth of my children.
I wish you could have been on the floor playing with them all.
I wish you could have built rubber band guns for them.
I wish you could have shown them how to play the guitar.
I wish you could be here with me now, and help me work on the truck and the tractor.
I wish we could sit on the porch and watch the dogs and the chickens play.
I wish we could have cold one at the kitchen table and just talk.
Dad you gave me so much in life, a purpose, a sense of responsibility, a moral code. I wish I could give back to you now. I pray for you. I know you didn’t have much faith in church, and remembering the church we had in Pinedale and their traditions, I’m not sure I blame you. I wish you could have known Jesus the way I do and see that he is not there to limit or to condemn you, but to be there as a friend.
I went back to college because of your passing. I got two degrees and may yet get another. Most of all, i, as a son, want to make you, my father proud.
When the day comes and I pass on to eternity, I hope to see you there with my Father in heaven. May we hug and love one another, like we did here on earth. I know we didn’t always see eye to eye, but I know you always loved me. You have passed on a rich heritage of fatherhood, and manhood. I hope I’m half the man you were.
On this father’s day weekend, I won’t be buying a card or a cheesy gift. I’ll just remember the days at the kitchen table, or working on the house, or playing volleyball with you. I will remember fondly the jokes and the games and the laughter. Thank you for being my father, and thank you for being a good man, and a good role model.
I miss you.
Your loving son......