There are times when I wish I knew God's will better. Or to be even more honest, for me to impose my will on him. It would be nice to have a new car in the driveway, and new house, acreage and a tractor. But those things will become a reflection of my will, not his.
My walk with Christ started in High School, and within months after meeting him and starting a very tenuous relationship, I threw it away. I lived the life of an atheist for almost thirty years before God and my wife orchestrated me back into Church. While there are times I regret those thirty years, it also gives me perspective about what people are going through when they have no net, no support, no friend you can call on anytime, anyplace. That life is lonely and full of heartbreak. I understand why people buy things to make themselves feel better, but it just leaves them empty and wondering. Things and self are not the answer. A relationship with the creator is the answer.
It will be four years next month that I came back, and the changes and experiences during those four years would fill several books. I can now speak with absolute assurance that I know God's love. I know my savior and I know that He wants the best for me. Tina and I have been through trying times, and have learned from them.
My wish is for each and every person to go into a quiet place and ask, "God are you there?" Be absolutely still, in your mind as well as your self. You will be answered. It might be a chill, or a warm spot on your shoulder, or an echo you hear in your mind. You might see a picture of a leaf, or something else. Take it seriously, God is.
He is there, and He has met me every time I've sought him.
What does he have in store for us? He has peace, love, contentment, provision, abundance, and a way of life where you don't have to compete any more. Rest upon Him and He will make you a new person.
I guarantee it. I'm living proof.